Ever have so much to do, that you shut down, don't do any of it, and play on Facebook all day? No? Just me? That's why it is now January 12th, and I'm just getting around to writing about the new year. I think I get so excited about the prospect of the fresh start a new year always feels like it brings. I know, I could start over any time if I'm not happy with the way something is. Each day is an opportunity to start fresh. But, I guess it's just the magic of that ball falling into a new year that makes me want to DO ALL THE THINGS!
2013 wasn't the greatest year for me. Certainly, it could have been a whole lot worse, and I'm very thankful that it wasn't. But in terms of personal growth it left a lot to be desired. The end of the year also came with a lot of medical issues. Both of my boys got concussions within a few weeks of each other. That alone gave me a bunch of new grey hair. Then my youngest fractured two bones in his wrist. Shortly thereafter, I found out I'm having some medical issues that require more trips to the doctor. So, given that all of that happened at the end of the year, all of the bills are arriving now. That means January is starting out in a financially bad place.
This is somewhat discouraging, but I am telling myself that it is just residuals from 2013 and that the year to come will still be great. I have an extremely high anxiety level, and that often leads to thinking about a lot of things that aren't going well, which leads to depression and a vicious cycle begins. But, deep down in that pit I sometimes find myself in, I still believe that I have the ability to change things that aren't going well for me. Sometimes it just takes a while to crawl out of the hole. I was in the hole for a good bit of the last few months, and really, I still am. But, I'm taking as many steps as I can to work my way back up. It's a slow process sometimes. Today was a really difficult day for example. But, it will happen in time.
Part of my new year ritual is to pick a theme song for the year. I keep it on my iPod or make it my ringtone to keep myself reminded of my goals. This years choice may make you laugh a bit, because it's such a pop cliche, but hey it's my theme song.