Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Women, Food, God and 48 Pounds

How's that for a title? So, I suck at keeping up with this blog, but I'm not sure anyone actually reads it, so that's probably fine. Anywho...

The book Women, Food and God by Geneen Roth is all the rage right now. She's been on Oprah and the book is a bestseller. I had previously read a book by Roth so I decided I'd see what all the fuss was about. I was a little skeptical at first because I don't really do the "God" thing anymore. I mean I suppose I believe that there is a higher power than ourselves, but I'm not religious and I don't want to read about how Jesus will save me from my weight. Thankfully this book was nothing I feared. I finished it quickly as it was a pretty easy read and I have to say that I do think it is something all women should read, even if they don't feel like they have food issues.

After nearly a year on Weight Watchers (which Roth had tried when it was far more restrictive) I feel like I'm starting to come too grips with the reasons I eat the way I do and in addition to that, the reasons I behave the way I do in other areas of my life. She did have a lot of really good things to say and it opened my eyes even further. I suspect it would be even more helpful to someone just starting out on a journey toward a healthier lifestyle.

Even more exciting that that, I have now lost 48 pounds! I weigh in on Thursday and I suspect I may have gained a little bit of that back this week, but that's OK. I still don't know exactly how I managed to lose the 4.2 pounds I lost last week so if a little comes back I'm fine with that. I had also donated blood that morning which may have accounted for some of that loss and in doing that and not eating enough I almost fainted in Subway after the meeting. Lucky for me, I have great friends who got my blood sugar back up quickly and I felt mostly normal for the rest of the day.

This means that I am now only 10 pounds away from my goal at Weight Watchers and 20 pounds away from my personal goal! I still can't believe it!

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Waiting

I am terrible at waiting. Seriously, I'm the most impatient person I've ever met. I cannot stand to wait for anything and I know it's really annoying to anyone who has to deal with me on a regular basis.

Things are uber stressful around here right now. A lot of things are going on, and a lot of things could happen soon. But I have to wait on everything. It sucks! I know it's part of life and rushing thing is never good, especially if it's important, but I'm just not good at this.

The weight loss is still going pretty well, but again with the waiting! I've lost nearly 45 pounds now and that brings me to about 15 pounds shy of the goal I've set with Weight Watchers (25 pounds from my personal goal) and the closer I get, the harder it is to wait to see what I'll look like and how I'll feel. I think there is some fear there too. I'm afraid of getting so close and failing. I'm afraid of getting there and then backsliding.

So, if anyone has any words of wisdom about waiting, I could really use them now!